I am fine

two words for today: good and excited...........................
that's all.

I bet I won't write blog for unknown period of time.... simply don't want...

^^^^ start being silly :D but I am serious. I am silly.

I expect...

life ahead will be more bumpy
with enemies laugh at me
and call me coward
saying harsh things which will be a fuel for the fire
fire of love and mercy

the older I am it must be more complitated and difficult
a more space for others
a more urge to leave the comfort zone
the more desire to give up life for the next generation

I love the pain
there will be much more pain for tomorrow
so, I want to rejoice for the pain of today
more humiliated
more oppressed
until His Power made manifest

what makes it...

the thirst and emptiness
the fire and confusion
low and bent
lost among the chaffs

wait, wait patiently
until the time
cause the gate is near
even though narrow
just be cheerful
step one leg in front of other

God is good!

The morning was very cool today... It will certainly be one of the mornings that I will miss a lot in the future! Morning in the dorm, when the sun shines very brightly through the window in the back of our room. Although recently there are many thirsty mosquitos in the dorm (including the ones which hapily play around me at the moment), but I feel peaceful just being here and doing my activities. Psalms and praises for the Lord are very fit to be lifted to God the whole day....

I have been arranging my files on the laptop to be seen a bit tidy and could be found easily. It's been a fun thing to do. I was sorry to hear one of my lovely friend's, Lisa's Dad passed away today. May God grant her strength and consolations. Memory eternal! She will need to fly to Batam, Riau island tomorrow morning. May God grant her safe journey!

Bambang and I attended the English corner meeting! It's always great to be together and share real things in English with native speakers. God bless Eric and Ann!

calm down

Today we had Indonesian literature exam! This was the final class for the course and I am quite happy that I was enabled to join this class which ended today! I love literature, although I am not very good in writing. At least I can read a little bit so even for now I haven't produced some literature works, at least I can enjoy others' works and appreciate them. It has been quite stormy, not only outside but inside me. But praise God it is well with my soul. I just feel kind of tiredness (for which I am to be thankful) especially in my eyes because I spent lots of time today to read.

The loud music in my room made me a little bit less concentrating... but of course that's very okay for the sake of others' hapiness. I don't want to dominate the nuance in the room with the Turkish and Chinese music... I want to hear instead what others prefer to listen. Praise God for all things!

when it grows

a strong tree with a deep root

could stand still in the violent storm

what is more when it's planted by the river

a gong and a cymbal produce sound

a high and loud voice

a tone of majestic and melody of knighthood

when it is hit by strong arms of musician

smooth and rhythmic pattern on the tree's cambium

is a result of long circle of struggle and striving of nature

in the smile of drought

in the shadow of chilling rain

when the time is complete

the tree becomes bigger and taller

son of desert

In the valley, what do I see....
I see the wind blows the sands of the desert
young sweet lilies between the stone in the sideway
where the pilgrim used to walked by

In the valley what do I see
I see the little birds tweeting nicely
under the cacti leaves which has grown so high
without water, only piercing light and heat

In the valley What, do I see
the sleepy eyes of the travellers
who hope to reach the home with all their might
with the flute on their lips
playing the songs of the fatherland

In the valley what do I see